"All I wanted to do was crawl into a hole and not feel what I was feeling," Gresham wrote about the phone call telling him he was being cut from the Seahawks.

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Clint Gresham had just finished the first year of a new three-year contract with the Seahawks, so he was shocked when he was waived from the team in March. The long snapper vividly remembers the call coming in from Seahawks general manager John Schneider, and he recently shared his memories of the day on his personal blog.

Gresham, who was originally signed as a free agent in August of 2010, had played in all 96 regular-season games for Seattle over the previous six years. He was one of just four players on the roster who had been with the team for the entire Pete Carroll era.

On March 16, while he was taking a golf lesson in Salt Lake City, he felt his phone buzz. As he wrote on his blog:

I glance at it and it says “John Schneider.” My heart dropped.  For those of you who don’t know, he is the Seahawks General Manager. A man that I have the utmost respect for, not only as a leader, but as a person. It went to voicemail. It’s never a good thing when the GM calls you in the middle of March and you have two more years on your contract. I glanced at the guy who had been giving me my lesson and I could tell he felt uncomfortable. I don’t blame him. I had a look of grief on my face that would bring Dwayne Johnson to tears. I knew what was about to happen. I had always wondered when this day would come.

Gresham called back, but his call went to voicemail:

The next eight minutes were the most agonizing of my life. It was like that bandaid that is just barely hanging on as you wait to rip it off. Finally he called, I let it ring a couple of times, obviously I had to play it cool. He got right to the point. “Gresh, there is no easy way to say this, but we’re releasing you. We aren’t going to bother with trying to trade you, we just want to go ahead and part ways. We found someone else.” I didn’t know what to say. He handed the phone to my head coach Pete Carroll. “Gresh, thank you so much for all you have done for us over the years. We appreciate you and wish you all the best.”

A huge rush of emotions came flooding in. I responded with a heartfelt thank you. I told Coach Carroll how it had been my dream to play for him since I was in high school and how grateful I was for the opportunity. After the exchange of pleasantries I hung up the phone. Absolutely the worst break up ever. Everything I had known for the last six years had happened in Seattle. I mean, I won a freakin’ Super Bowl with the men on the other end of this empty phone call. All I wanted to do was crawl into a hole and not feel what I was feeling.

Gresham’s agent, Kevin Gold, told The Seattle Times on Thursday that Gresham remains working out and hoping to latch on with another NFL team.

“He thought he was going to be there, so he’s been a little bit in shock,’’ Gold said. “But he’s gotten over it and he’s ready to go. We’ve already talked to a few teams and he’s had a couple of workouts. He’s pretty much number one on everybody’s list in case of an emergency and I wouldn’t be surprised if someone brings him in closer to the time training camp starts.’’

Gold said Gresham decided to write about his experience being released in part to move on from it.

“He’s healed now and he’s ready to start a new chapter somewhere else,” Gold said. “Hopefully soon.”